I woke up this morning at about 6 am thinking about how in exactly 4 months I will be on a plane to Mexico.  Yes a vacation in Mexico sounds lovely….but for someone who is terrified of flying (even before my anxiety started) and on some days cant even leave my house….this trip is not something I look forward to.

Well really its not a vacation b/c that I could cancel if I needed to.  We are going for my sisters wedding which of course I cant back out of b/c I'm the maid of honour and of course I would never want to miss my sisters wedding.

This trip will be the most challenging and difficult thing that I have done in the past 1 1/2 years.  Last summer I was supposed to go to Ontario for a visit with family but I had to cancel the trip b/c just even going to the airport to pick up visitors gave me the worst panic attacks I have ever had. 

I totally despise and hate flying.  Being trapped on that airplane with all of those people and that stale air….oh good god it makes me sick thinking about it. I am so afraid I'm going to totally freak out waiting at the airport or even worse while flying.  Then when we get there we have to do a 1 1/2 hour bus ride to the resort.  As you can probably tell I am not a fan of public transportation.

I know I will do it b/c I dont want to regret not going and I dont want to let everyone down.  Just not looking forward to thinking about it for the next 4 months.  If anyone has any travel tips for me I would definitely appreciate hearing about them.  Thanks!!