Hi to anyone reading this .. I just wanna pour my heart out. Tonight’s the worse night ever and since Noone cares to listen, I decided to write away my pain … I’m actually heart broken and I have so much burden on me when am only 20 … I have to worry about my mum not losing her job, my dad having to complain to me about his conflicts with my mum … having to worry about my future, it’s more like everything about me is just full of bad luck .. I won’t be able to go to college cause I’ve got to help raise my other siblings … I sometimes cry that I didn’t beg to be born into this world full of problems … people say I have a cheerful smile but they don’t know how dark, lonely and sad I truly am … I’m really fed up and tired. I’ve never had any successful relationship. . It’s more like people don’t like me, maybe I’m a bad person.. I don’t even know .. even those I try to approach snub me immediately or leave me hanging after some time. … I just had to go through my contact list hoping to find someone to pour my heart to… I was left disappointed.. I try to go with the motto that says “as long as there’s life, there’s hope”. Unfortunately am tired of hoping for better things … right now, my eyes are swollen and my mattress is soaked … I have so much to say but all I need right now is a shoulder to cry on … I better stop here cause I wouldn’t stop writing. I’m broken 😭.. wish my diary had feelings, I’m sure it would been a better mate than any human.