My mood's other because I actually feel kinda sick. I don't know why. Anyway, today was pretty good. Nothing eventful happened, but I guess that's a good thing. Two pretty eventful things did happen though. I reached out to my boyfriend last night and my teacher today. I could barely speak the words when I was trying to tell my boyfriend (Zach by the way) how I felt. He was being so supportive though. I starting crying because of all of the emotion that I was hiding and he just listened to me the whole time. I didn't even know what I wanted to tell him when I was talking but I found words. Then, the call failed and when we starting talking again the conversation didn't last. But it made me feel better so that's good.

Today, I saw my teacher and I like forced myself to put my plan into action. Even afterwards I was like, did I really do that? But like 2 days ago I wrote down the website address of that really angry blog I wrote, then gave it to him to look at. I know, kinda dumb, but I couldn't being myself to say the words, as I have previously stated. I told him not to look at the website until he was actually gonna type it in though, I think when he would see "ocd tribe" as the first part it might give it away. So, I'm gonna talk to him tomorrow during lunch because he doesn't have a class that block. And, yes, I did plan it out that way so that I gave him the website the day before he had a free period during lunch so we could talk. I plan things to the last detail.

Those were unusually long paragraphs for me. I usually like to break it up smaller so you readers don't get so bored and it doesn't seem as long. Sorry.

-Toni