Every summer I get more and more depressed and it’s happening again. I’ve applied to hundreds of jobs and received nothing but rejections. Reach out to so-called friends and they don’t have to decency to respond. Nothing is working out at all. People constantly say bullshit like “it’ll get better but it doesn’t.” I’m going to be depressed for as long as I live. I constantly go back and forth over whether or not I should kill myself. I’m never going to get better. I know this summer is going to be a bad one just like all the others. I’m always going to be depressed.