Its so pathetic that i get excited over a email. Its like the only communication i have. I have no one to talk to. So when i get a silly comment or stupid chain letter. I get exctied. I tried looking for penpals cause i am that desperate for friends. Think to myself wow you have sunk to a new low. I talk to my family everyday but its not the same cause if i want to complain about that person of course i cant complain to them. My poor mom has to listen to me all the time. cause she is the only person i have. Well there is the dogs but i dont think talking them would be a good idea cause then they will think i am more than just crazy. done the dating sites too that is just worthless cause when i fill out that about me part i cant think of anything good to say about myself so that is pointless. Not to mention that being crazy is not on the list of wants for the opposite sex. I actually got out of the house today and i was ok for little while but then i started feeling like everyone was looking at me and thinking something totally outrageous. so i started panicking and i needed to go home. At least i got out

One thing i will say is i went and watched my son play basketball today I was happy for that one hour. cause my son put all his effort into playing i was so proud of him. Not to mention he was incredilbe !!!   He is going to be my little jock. plays every sport and is god at everyone not sure where he gets it from cause its not me but i know that he puts all his effort into getting it right and being perfect at it. And i know that is not a good thing but i think for right now its ok.