It's been awhile, where you been?
I'm still clean & sober, standing on my own;
Relying on God, I guess I have grown.
I do think of you sometimes, but not nearly as much;
Now I'm facing life on life's terms; I don't need a crutch.
But I see you're still busy, still passing out gloom;
It's on the faces of newcomers, as they crawl in the rooms.
Beaten & broken, they've lost and it shows;
Recoiling from kindness, waiting for "No's".
But no matter how deep you've pushed them, no matter the depth;
They'll soon stand on their own, after doing the steps.
Because once we realize that – the past is the past;
We find the peace we've been seeking, that this time will last.
We realize that drinking & drugging did not fill the hole;
That it's been God all the time, calling our soul.
And when we let down our guard, there comes such relief;
We're suddenly filled; we have inner peace.
So darkness old friend, you need to be on your way;
I need to give thanks; to kneel down and pray.
I need to give thanks to my Power, that has kept you at bay;
So when you wave from a distance, I turn away.
I mean, who'd ever thought I'd be happy while clean;
Me; a shell of a man, and a nasty dope fiend.
So don't go away mad, just go away;
I'm ending this here, I've had my say.
By Charlie G
The pain in my brain,
Is such a strain,
I want it to drain.
Like a ‘Dali’ Abel slaying Cain.
Reality hurts, what’s to gain?
Before being yanked back by its chain.
Wetness on my cheek, I think it’s a tear.
So I lace up my boots, and strap on my gear.
I’d been here before, as I neared my first year.
I needed a meeting, to be with my peers.
“Go to a meeting? Are you daft?”
But I head out in my car, and on down the lane,
Because as sad as it’s been, writing this muse,
I promised my daughter never to use.
And the addictions inside me, that had whispered a riot?
Daring by sharing had rendered them quiet.
Remember, life isn’t always tied with a bow,
Just know, “This too will pass, and go with the flow.
So as I doubt and I hurt, I also will cheer,
Because in May I’m giving my daughter 3 years!