Currently debating whether I should kill myself or not. I have nothing to live for. There’s nothing in my life to look forward to. I’m always depressed and nothing ever works. For the exception of my parents I hate every single person in my life. Family is uncaring and so-called friends are all apathetic and full of shit. I don’t have any friends. In the past I was always the only one taking any initiative. Therapy doesn’t work. Support groups don’t work. Therapist come and go and don’t seem to have any real empathy. I have no connection to anyone. I’m completely alone. I feel like a burden to my parents and everyone else. Right now is the closest I’ve ever been to suicide. I’m going to be depressed for as long as I live. I hate this. I hate my life.