How I wish I didn't have feelings. How I wish… I am always fooled by my own emotions. I fall in love too easily, or what I think is, what i need to be, love. And, knowing, inside, without doubt, without hope…I'm forever alone. I'm drawn in like a fool, by any little hope…and always let down. I think sometimes, I am the only woman who's never had anyone "fall in love" with her. I can't tell the story of my life here…but this is what it boils down to… I am alone. I will always be alone. I gave years and years to false love…gone, nothing. I found myself alone, always, alone. Except for this: for two years out of my long life, I did have a love that I cherished…someone who needed me maybe as much as I needed him. I won't say he was "in love" with me, but we were happy to be together every moment, even when we argued, even when i drove him to pure agony because i am a crazy bitch. Well, he died on me…after two short years. he was all I had…all I had to keep me from nothingness. Gone. I swear, i still don't understand it. I lost all the meaning, all the hope, life ever held for me. i'm pretty old now..I'm 55 yrs old. I go out, but i always go alone. When I go out, men look at me. They tell me i am beautiful, gorgeous. But I go home alone. And I am alone. And I will be alone. And I will die alone. well, I just figure this…I am a ghost..I don't think I am even real, even alive. Anyhow, about a year and a half ago, I met someone much younger than myself. And I told myself the truth about it. he was married. I didn't want to see him again, but he, I suppose, fed my ego…and I don't know what his motivation was…maybe he wanted his mommy… I have no idea. But I knew, and I was blind and I was stupid… And I fell into this trap, set up by loneliness, set up by ego, set up by lust, set up by flattery, and all things false. And it led on and on, and I couldn't tear myself away from this craziness. Well, anyhow, today, his wife had their first baby. And I am very happy for this. i did not want to interfere in this man's life. And i don't…. but it just hurts because… because I am alone. Everyone else i know has love, or has family, or some connection to humanity. But me, Ihave nothing…I am trulyan island. And this island should just be washed away in the waves aroundit…. I don't want to exist anymore. You see, there is nothing left for me, except me…and I am just hanging on to nothing, nothing at all…. Icount down the days.. but I don't know how many are left. I'm not afraid of death, but I am afraid of dying. Iwish that I woulddie like my loved one…he died in a moment, suddenly. that was his blessing, I tell you, because Iknew his fears. i don't know what's beyond thislife. to tell the truth, I'm not so sure I care much. I don't tell my doctor this stuff…and I keep on living most of the time like everything is ok. But people get weird when they are alone, alone, alone… there are things you learn to hide, and it becomes a habit to hide the strangeness inside you. I try to findsomething to believe in, but it is getting very difficult. people Ithink just sense something wrong about me. I'm not sure what to do about anything…I just try to get through tomorrow,and then the next day, but every day brings some new obstacle…and I don'tknow how long I can go on, and I don't know how to get out of here. That's all. I just had to unload that. I will go on tomorrow, and the next day, and etc….
I have worked with a wide variety of people and problems, both common and uncommon, for the past 15+ years. People have often expressed that my style makes it easy to open up about difficult issues, and that insight gained from sessions really helps in thinking about things in new ways.
As living human beings, we encounter times in our lives when we need someone to help us think, reflect and look at our lives. I am passionate about helping people live life to the fullest of their abilities. I offer counselling in English and Afrikaans.
Healing comes from the inside out. Talking helps. I can gentle help you move through your traumatic memories and leading you to a happier life. WIth a new perspective your life will change. Trauma impacts all areas of your life. Trauma is hell and healing from trauma is a God send,
Do you need someone to talk to? Everyone does! Begin your therapeutic journey with me! I offer comfortable, confidential, and customized therapy to meet your individual needs. I specialize in helping clients with relationship issues, anxiety, depression, and anger management.
At time we all struggle. For some, anxiety and depression are constant companions. For others sudden life challenges (e.g. loss, illness) force a completely re-evaluation of life. Some struggle with certain behaviours or thoughts while others are simply overwhelmed by life.
Caroline Eldridge AOD/Mental Health Practitioner.
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I believe that everyone has the potential to achieve their own happiness.My role is to help you be the best "you".Working together using one or all of the modalities acquired over 20 years of study and practice. I have worked successfully with voluntary and mandated clients to reach individual goals
As a holistic psychotherapist, my aim is to empower individuals to change health behaviors in a safe space. In a collabotive effort, I encourage clients to challenge old ways of thinking and behaving and to focus on solutions for lifelong issues in order to increase their overall wellbeing.
Professional counselor since 1993. I worked as a public mental health clinician 1994-2000. Although grounded in counselling & psychotherapy methods (cognitive/behavioral, psychodynamic, family & brief therapy models), I specialize in cutting edge mind/body/energy/spirit modalities.
At Caring Couples, helping couples is our passion! Over 90% of our clients are couples. We specialize in communication problems, sexual problems, recovery from affairs, and coping with substance or sex addiction. We also offer premarital counseling in couple or group format.
As a licensed clinical psychologist for 20+ years, I understand that the relationship and "fit" between client and therapist is paramount. I work hard to establish and maintain a relationship based on mutual trust and honesty. We can work together to help you feel less stuck, and more in control.
I provide professional, results-oriented counseling with a focus on Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), a method that more quickly and effectively brings about positive changes. As a Marriage and Family Therapist, I also work extensively with couples and family members on relationship issues.
Ashburn Psychological Services was founded in 2005 by Dr. Michael Oberschneider. The practice has been well received by area professionals and families and has grown to be the home of some of the area's leading psychiatrists and psychologists. We are here to address your needs.
I am a Licensed Professional Counselor, a Certified Traumatologist and a Nationally Certified Counselor who specializes in mood and anxiety disorders, post-traumatic stress disorder, multicultural counseling, relationship issues and problems associated with emotional and physical abuse.
My sensitive and engaging, direct and practical, style is reported by my clients as one of their attractions to working with me. I work with Children, Adolescents and Adults, addressing ADHD, depression and anxiety, divorce, loss and medical trauma. . I would be honored with your trust in me.