It's 3:00 a.m. and I cannot sleep.  I have to be up in three hours but my mind will not shut off.  I decided to "play" in blogs and take some of the quizzes.  I found alot about myself and confirmation of things I already knew.  I posted them on my page because this is the only place I can be me.  I don't have to worry about anyone else about me.  I wish it was like this in the real world.  I think I would be happier than I am now.  I have become a recluse and my dogs hate it.  They run and play in the back yard but the walks stopped along time ago.  I have gained weight because of lack of exercise, basically I am the same weight as I was one year ago.  I know that if I start walking or at least get out it would minumize some.  I do not like going shopping even when I have money.  I HATE grocery shopping.  The funny part is, I am considered a Type A Extrovert personality but in my mind I am NOTHING like this label. 

Another thing that is stressing me….I have been looking for a job for almost one month and I still cannot find one near the salary I was making.  I feel very unworthy of that level of career.  I feel like people see my resume and go "trash".  Why hasn't anyone called?  Am I not good enough to hire?  I need a job and fast but I cannot afford to flip burgers at this time.  If it came down to it, I will start working 3 jobs again to survive and pay my bills.

Thanks for listening.  I always feel better when I vent.