I know this may sound rather cliché.. but there are those of us out here that understand completely! And as much as I would like to explain it away.. I cant. Ive been trying to do that for myself for years. In fact, Ive been dealing with depression since the age of 10. I wont go into detail but I have run the gamut of experiences when it comes to my depression. I think the first thing you need to realize is… this isnt a fault. You have a valid medical illness. AND You are NOT less of a person because of your illness. In fact,  just because those moms are smiling.. doesnt mean they are happy. Most of them probably arent. Keep in mind that we all tend to portray ourselves as whatever we think people want to see us as. Im sure they dont want to be seen as "weak" either. (Although there is nothing wrong with weakness) And they probably looking at you and wondering why they cant be more like you. We all tend to mask our feelings. No one wants to be judged. The thing is.. we are all human. No one is perfect. Society has implemented this expectation.. this standard that none of us can live up to. So, we pretend we do. Dont let some superficial definition define your life or who you are. Everyone has difficulties & hurdles. Some of us however, arent able to deal with them as well as others. Depression isnt some term made up by weak individuals so they have an excuse. It is a legitimate disease that plagues soooo many people. I think your being here is a good thing. At least here, you can voice your feelings & know that someone is listening. It isnt an easy fix. But the more you understand others & yourself.. the easier it becomes to accept.. and believe it or not… even on the most difficult of days.. you find yourself smiling more… you find some sense of happiness within yourself. not for anyone else.. but because you realize… its okay to feel. Its okay to cry. Its okay to be human. Its okay.