I do not know if it is because it is a Monday, I'm bored,or I am actually depressed, but i am completely numb. I feel nothing. It's as if i am back on medication. I was actually banging my head against the wall a couple minutes ago. I feel sick. yet i eat for no reason at all. It could be the birth control. God how i hate taking it.

I think i just answered my own question. it is the second week of the pill. Symptoms are starting to kick in. If this continues i will have to demand i be taken off it. there was no reason to put me on it in the first place. yeah i missed my period for 3-5 months. But i wasn't preggers. And my test came back negative for any STD's. I really don't think i should be on the pill. I am killing off my potential children!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry religion speaking.

But yeah. i am completely numb. I can not feel happiness, even worse i can not feel sadness or anger. Not even Naruto cheered me up. I am surrounded by happy people but it does nothing. I feel nothing. worst thing is… It's finals week!

On the plus side i finished my standards list. it's a list of standard to ensure that i will never end up with a guy. I be violent… unfortunately… there are around 80-90 standards on that list. i hope my friend has fun trying to find a guy that meats the standards. yes i doubt her a little. but i have been told the she is 99.999% right all the time. but there is that .0001%. But it was fun.

back to the numbness. can i just go die in a freakenhole in the middle of an uncharted desert.

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope you guys are having a good night =D