I got diagnosed at the hospital March 23, 2014 and a couple days later was in the ICU trying to stay alive from PCP pnemonia. Wow, what a fucken blessing a month before my 30 bday and I not only am dying from HIV but its already developed to AIDS cd4 95 viral load 56.9 ml……… I showed no emotion not because I was trying to hide it but because I couldnt feel anything other than being scared! Best thing is that I have a supportive family and friends that have stayed by my side to help me get through this. Everyone keeps telling me with the new medications available I will live a regular long life if i take my medication, but I still believe (maybe paronoia, lol) that they are just saying that to make me feel better.
They started me on truvada and kaletra the hiv doctor in the hopsital was the worst he didn't explain anything to me would hardly speak to me other than check on me every morning for about 2 min. max. Well when discharged I registered at the local Aids Clinic and wow the Westbrook Clinic in Harlingen TX is fucken amazing. They treat you like family the doctor is super smart and blunt! He did labs on me to see how the meds were working and to my surprise my cd4 count went up to 413 and my viral load was at 2600. Thats crazy how much my cd4 count increased in a month, Im hoping when I see him again it will be higher and my viral load undetectable.
Either way, Its still a new experience, and everyday I'm learning to accept my diagnosis and the anxiety is starting to abate. I guess just need to keep having faith in myself. Now I'm trying to meet other people who are positive and going through the same life long journey I am in. First blog didnt even know this site existed…….