Two words. That's all it took to destroy any confidence I had in my newly found social life. "You're rude.". Apparently I've been being rude all day. Which was news to me. I simply think my friend doesn't get my humor, which could be a problem. But I would never be purposefully rude. I hate that anyone would think that. Every since she uttered those words, I've been sitting here in tears.
And if you want to talk about rude, lets talk about rude.
I think it's rude when someone takes you out to lunch, and pays, like she has for 3 days,and you order something that costs more than what the person paying for it costs. Why do I have to order water to cut down on costs, but you order a 2 dollar sprite? You said you were getting the 4.99 cheeseburger. So I got something 4.99 also. But then after I order you change it to the 6.99 burger? That's kind of rude. You get a better lunch than I do! I told you be as cheap as possible. And then I end up getting something free and you tell me (in an unjoking way) that I better be sharing it? and if I don't, that's rude? What about you? You get 2 cookies for lunch, but never give me one. (Kindergarden much? lol) If you want to get into sharing, I've done way more for you than you have for me. I owe you nothing.
There's more where that came from, but I don't feel like typing it out.
So now I'm probably just not going to talk much anymore, at the risk of being rude. I think I'm just doomed to be alone in the world forever. I've been trying to choose what I say and do very carefully, because I don't want people to see me as rude or bossy (which I am bossy, very…I'm just mostly right) Yet something…still happens. No matter what. I just want to give up. Now it's all I can think about.