Recently, I’ve been having bad derealization episodes. I’ve struggled with many things before, but this, by far, is the second worst.
I could be sitting in class and suddenly everything around me becomes a blur. People’s voices sound muffled, time seems to slow down, my vision begins to become static-like, and my body feels really, really light. And everything around me stops feeling real.
And I overthink. More than anyone should. I overthink everything. It’s why I can’t get anything done or communicate or be a better person to my closest friend.

I am not speaking to my therapist about this until I figure out what’s wrong with me so I can give a better explanation. I want to find out what’s wrong with me so I can fix it.

I want to be happy. I want to be normal. But I can’t do that if there’s something deeply psychologically & mentally wrong with me and I can’t figure out what it is nor how to fix it.