South Africa was called for Social distancing (coronavirus) 2 days after we saw the psyc. In the session he said he wanted to book himself into a treatment Centre for depression and sexual addiction. He never went as the country was called into lockdown but rented himself another place to stay very close to our house. During the lockdown he comes here most days to spend time with the children.  Which I find comforting in some ways but also very disturbing.

I have asked numerous times to leave in the last 4 years. He always refused too.

I know this makes me now just as wrong as him as I met someone else in February. Not anything serious but someone that showed me I was good enough.

I so want to spend time with this other person now and it has made my anxiety and depression with the lock down in consideration even worse.

I am extremely sad and confused at the moment