For the last year I have been going through different waves of depression! And I am currently at a point that I am not willing to sit in my depression anymore. Through the past year I have also come to grips with the fact that I have anxiety problems as well. I am currently tackling several "issues" at one time.

1. My mother is currently recovering for a 1 worth of illnesses

2. Going to school full time

3. Working full time

4. Handling my boyfriend moving to NYC (this is the hardest one to deal with)

I slip in and out of depression moods throughout the day. This is the first time I have ever experienced different moods to this extreme in one day and it take alot of energy out of me. I also wake up tired every single day. I feel like a blanket of heaviness is on me and I miss being the old me. I know the relationships I have for me family, friends and boyfriend are directly affected. I am a Christian as well and I know that the relationships I have with God has changed as well.

But today I am going to try to make it better. At the moment I do not know how but I am going to learn how to totally submit to God because I know that is the first step.

Several times a wk I am going to update my blog as well as write about things I am trying that may help or do not help with this process.