no matter howbhard i try and how many times i read one sentence it wont let me learn. I kno w maybe a thousand words. I can algebra them together somehow subconsciously even though i dont know what it means. I dont know what anything means. a line. a circle. I dont know who anyone is or any story whatsoever. It wont let me read it wont let me learn. Nobody can tell me anything they only ever ask questions apart from in my imagination i learn one sentence a day. I want real life not my imagination anymore. Im tired of feeding them and helping them i have nothing left. I want to g et a job as a kit chen porter and work my way up to being a chefs assistant to make friends as probably my internet device is going to stop working and i could be here trapped in hospital for ever. If your lucky you get a yello w pages through your letterbox.