My OCD has been laying low lately…and that makes me a bit nervous. Because when it goes away for a while, it likes to come back tenfold and disrupt everything. I just got over a depressive OCD bout and I don’t have the energy to do it again right now. I need a mental break from all the unwanted thoughts in my head.
So, in order to not trigger myself I avoid my triggers…which is basically everything on planet earth because my mind will find something to worry about or find something to have an intrusive thought about…and then the whole cycle begins again the way it has on and off since I was four years old!
It is annoying…and it’s even more annoying that I find my OCD or lack of OCD is causing me anxiety because I know it’s in there somewhere saying “I’ll be back!” I’m just not sure when…or which subject it will chose to be obsessed with.
This is also the story of my life. Please remember your good times and leave notes for yourself when you’re feeling good. I’ve even recorded videos of myself for talking to myself during a panic attack. Everytime, I have intrusive thoughts start to ruin my life I recover faster and faster through. I’ve played this game far too long to not know the rules and how to win and so do you.