So just to update those of you who are following my journey I am so humbled to have you and all the kind words you share with me.

A few months ago I met a guy, began working again, and I enrolled in some college classes.<3

If you have been following ive been working hard to pay my school bills and regular bills while supporting myself at the same time. It was a lot of up and downs, a-lot of cry, a-lot of empty tequila bottles, a-lot of grams of weed and lastly a-lot of self hate-red that drove me to not give up. I constantly told my self to wait and that it would take time. I told myself that for a year. And beat myself up over and over again. I forgave myself over and over again. Here’s what I accomplished since I last wrote:

-Went to California and went to Disney land.

-Sat on the beach in Cali

-Did a morning walk in Cali on the beach three days in a row

-Started working again and got a raise

-Applied to classes to see if i would get approved and got approved

-Signed up for two classes

-Met someone who is just as interested in me as I am to them

Good things friends.. Good things I worked hard for and mostly good things I waited a long time for. I couldn’t have done it without believing in myself. I would not let myself fail without a fight.

I am Happy today