And so I felt you again
So near me
So close to me
That my air was going away
My heartbeat started
I couldn’t breath
Tears would just come out
I couldn’t describe
The confort and pain that
You brought to me
Once again
I felt that dear pain
My friend
I thought I had lost you
For a brief moment
For a few weeks and there
You were living inside of me
Never to let me be free
For it is not you
It is I
It is me
Living this obstruction
Of regrets and misery
I created you
You have created me
Hand in hand we go along
So violently
I turn around only to see
nothing but debris
and so I live
a day at a time
an hour a minute
Not even in dreams
can I be free
Not even in dreams
Can I dream
Of better days
So I put a smile
and so I live
Because the world
dosent stop
for you or me
Tick Tock Tick Tock
goes the world
My heart keeps pounding
I wonder when
it will stop
I wonder when
my heart will drop
and so with pain I go
interacting with the flow
For you are my dear friend
my enemy
the reflection of my soul
the reflection of my pain
and so you will be with me
until the day I die
holding me
captive
holding to the consequences
of my actions
for everyday I’m reminded
by the pain
by my brain
and by you my dear friend
How can explain to others
what I hold dear
how can I explain
that youre eating me alive
no one cares
not even time
and so I lay down
looking at the sky
maybe tomorrow
I will be ok
maybe tomorrow I will be save
from myself and from others
maybe tomorrow I can go back
to change my past
for I live in the past
not the present
not the future
days become one
indistinguishable
thats what years are
that what time is
Oh my dear friend
let go of my hand
Let me suffocate alone
and with my youth
I will remain
in this eternal dream
of pain.
