i knew it wouldn't last long… i knew she was going to yell at me for something and now she has… life is back to normal… my mom got back from cali earily yesterday morning… we went to the movies yesterday and she told me all about her trip… everything was fine… to keep things low i haven't brought up my job stuff, 'cause she goes off on a tengent so i've stay away from that subject… but today it started with the movie… i told her either 12 or 12:30 and she said 12:30… she went and got dress i didn't think anything of it, didn't realise that she thought it started at 12:45… she was so sure of her self and what she was doing that i just went by what she said because idk why… she always knows what she's doing… and so when we got to the movies and we were late she yelled and yelled… told me i had to be responsible, you know what!! i was never late for anything when she was gone… never had a problem… she comes back and i screw up… and i need responsiblity and… i'll edit this more later… mom want to go out again and i must obey… … … back… …and… i'm always wrong and she's always right… i'm too scared to go through with killing myself(so don't worry i won't do it)… but sometimes i wish i wasn't… and at those times i get scared even more… … … i want to live, but i want to live a better life… that life is away from my mom… but i'm stuck with her for now, 'cause she'll cry and cry till i come home… and because, i know she's crying, its not better… idk what to do… but life goes on… leave this here… and i know for a fact that more post like this will be coming… life sucks:sad: