Hey there,

I'm not one to normally blog but just looking for advice. My boyfriend of five years got in a severe accident and since then has had three surgeries in the past six months. I had a bad feeling watching him get one perscription after another considering I am not one to even take a tylenol I do not believe in perscription drugs for this reason. I have watched several family members struggle with perscription drug abuse but I have never seen someone get this bad. I could tell my other half was developing a drug addiction but did not realized how bad opiate addictions really are. I then started notice a major decrease in his libido hanging out with strange people and avoiding his normal friends we have always hung around. Then came a thunder I have found foil and assortments of ways of smoking drugs. I noticed he would stay locked up in the bathroom for about an hour complaining about how his digestion was out of wack(caused by perscription drugs) but then one day I went in after him and could smell a horrible smell. Obviously he was smoking some sort of substance in there. Afterwards I noticed black finger prints all over everywhere the walls the handle to our cabinets, the toothbrush(to cover up the smell on his breathe) etc…I recently noticed in our area the smoking of heroin has become more and more popular for some reason but I never thought it would be happening in my own home. I am not one to be around drugs besides marijuana which I smoke myself and don't consider it to be addiciting.

Several months have gone by now and we have had one fight after another I've told him over and over if he doesnt stop i'm going to leave him but it still has yet to happen. Recently he told me he has an addiciton to opiates and wants to do something about it. I can tell he hates himself since he started this addiciton and it breaks my heart. I thought we would be together forever and never thought something like this would end such a beautiful thing. I dont know what to do or how to handle this but I am about at all I can take. I'm not happy and he isnt either. I cant make him happy and our relationship i'm afraid has fallen apart…does anyone have any advice for me? Should I move on and just give up…I dont want us to end but almost feel as if hes holding me back and i'm just a push over to him. Maybe if I was to leave he would have a rude awakening…maybe he would realize and try to be strong because in my eyes all he is weak and it breaks my heart because he used to have so much life and fire inside now he is dull and never has any energy. Please help