Well, Happy Valentine's Day friends. I can't say that I'm in a loving mood today or excited about today either. All that has happened this week has been too painful to really think about romantic love in any way. Besides, I'm married ~ lol. After 14 years neither one of us are big on doing the valentine thing and that's fine with me. Instead we're going to celebrate on our anniversary next month. But I still have to go out sometime today and get something for Zachary. Blech ~ don't feel like leaving the house again.

I just got home a short while ago. I had to do a blood draw this morning at the hospital. I was NOT happy about the fact that I couldn't have my morning coffee or breakfast. I'd fasted for over 12 hours and was over it. At least my phlebotomist was nice and really good ~ I didn't feel a thing.

I'm tired today. I'm not sure why, but I am. I'm going to go back to bed after I finish on here. The weather is part of it. It's gray and rainy and cool and it's going to be for the rest of the day. Perfect sleeping weather for me. I'm going to wrap myself in the covers and have my puppy sleep next to me, or one of the cats. Most of the time I really don't like sleeping alone. I hate the feeling of an empty bed.

Speaking of the weather, it was actually almost 90 degrees here yesterday. Ugh! The humid heat and I don't mix well ~ I'm very fair-skinned and burn really easily. I cannot believe it's been in the high 80's for a couple of days now even though we're still in winter. Tonight it's supposed to go down into the low 50's, which I'm looking forward to.

On a completely different topic, I feel like a monster. I was slightly hypomanic yesterday and it makes me feel like a terrible person because I'm not grieving. I hope this goes away before the service. That's supposed to be Saturday or Monday; I should find out for sure later today.

At the same time though I did grieve a lot for the first 2 days. But in my mind he's been freed of all that he was suffering physically. And he's undoubtedly joined with all his loved ones that had passed on before him, including his daughter. I'm sure he's telling dirty jokes, poking fun at himself and eating sweets. 🙂 Those were some of his favorite things to do.

I hope you all are well today and feel decent. (((HUGS))) to you all.

~ Keya