I had a dream last night.
I was with people I knew. They were all quirky people. I was saying the guy next door is crazy. I was cleaning up a mess in the living room because fruit has been left there. I tried to clean it up before anyone got mad at me. I remember coming back from work. I had games in my backpack and other stuff. When I got home I accidentally found a card. It was a birthday card, and there were people around to celebrate my birthday.
Then I woke up. It felt good but then that feeling washed away. Because in real life. There isn’t anybody to celebrate my birthday. I know my next birthday when I come. It will be just another normal day. Me, alone, and maybe crying.
Hey Mr.Tea Owl, Ii know what it feels like to be alone on your birthday…
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Um. do people get mad at you in your dreams often? And are you often cleaning up messes? The most recent fruit In one of my dreams was a kumquat… mixed into a bowl of cherries and hazelnuts & I did not want to eat the skin… weird isn’t it?
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In my dreams I tend to either be 1) trying to get away from someone or 2) Trying to find someone. I do have conversations, but the words usually turn into gibberish when i try to remember… It can be frustrating!
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On the brighter side of things, if my phone is on the nightstand I can quickly get the “Voice Memo” program running, then I can recall my dream out loud. Which is great! I can think a whole lot faster than I can type with my thumbs!! * Sometimes I drift off again while I am talking and I get really hard to hear… as I fade away.
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Which games were in your bag?
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Why not treat yourself to a nice meal out in a restaurant or bar? This way you might not feel so alone… Make it a special occasion and wear some of your nicer clothes, maybe style your hair up a bit? ** One of the last bars I was in had a delicious dish of Spicy steamed muscles.. ( Yes, they had been frozen, so not the best… ) It is meant to be an appetizer, but if I am the only one eating (which is typical) it fills me up!
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If there is a game on the television sometimes there is a crowd and I can feel the energy and excitement coming off of everyone. But I can only handle this if I can get the booth furthest from the bar, by the windows. I am still working up to being comfortable in crowds, so six other people feels like a lot!
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Recently I have been in some kind of funk, energy is down, not motivated to do anything & barely going outside at all… It sounds like you are dreading your birthday? When I go out and about I usually don’t have company except for Bob the dog. We have great conversations…. and no, I do not know how he does this.
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* This is a 1st generation SE ( a iPhone 5 ) so the screen is tiny. But I like it’s size. The Otterbox case is a tank, but it still fits in my pocket.
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** for me, my “Nicest” clothes are the clean ones, and probably meant to be worn by men…. When I am at home I am usually dress up as “Iris”. This is when I am the happiest. 🙂 I really do not enjoy doing laundry. So sometimes I am wearing heavy work boots under a skirt, and a “frilly” blouse over some curves on top… Talk about quirky?!? I do not know if Bob would laugh at me if he could…..?.
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Wow, my mind wandered off somewhere and this got a lot longer than I meant it to be. Welcome to the odd world inside this skull
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Sending you some hope for a smile on your face, a warm hug, and dreams for a bright future – Iris