When you have anxiety it’s hard to get someone to listen and take you seriously. That’s why I’m here I guess. Every single person I try and talk to about it either can’t relate, or seems like they really just don’t care. I have been struggling with anxiety since I was 14 maybe. I didn’t realize how much it affected my life until I got older and couldn’t function in every day life. Thinking your crazy and suffering in silence is probably the worst feeling in the world, I’ve been seeing a counselor since December. It has helped a lot, venting and realizing your not so crazy after all helps. I still have really bad days tho. Days where I don’t want to leave my bed because the thought of doing anything is just too much. My counsler told me yesterday that she wants me to see their psychiatrist, and recommends me being on medication. Maybe I am crazy after all. I’ve tried medication once before (celexa) and the first dose I took made me feel really weird and sick. My doctor told me I can’t take SSRI’s because of the reaction I had. So now the thought of taking medication is terrifying. Plus having a label of whatever it is I am make me so deeply and darkly sad. I do want to change my life. I do want to not feel like a piece of shit. I’m just really scared.

Has anyone had experience with the medication buspar? If I’m spelling it right. That’s the medication my counsler was kind of suggesting. I know it’s ultimately up to the psychiatrist.

I hope that I can’t find some peace and guidance though the therapytribe, and also a sense of not being so alone in this world.

Tjank you for reading my page. I’m the best with grammar, but it is what it is.