Anxiety is something I have struggled with for awhile now, but recently within the past month or few weeks I have hit a point of no return. I am currently in nursing school full time, planning my wedding in august, have a 6 year old son, and just have life in general. Last night was the last time I had a panic/anxiety attack worse than I could ever have remembered having. I got out of the car to pump gas and I just felt like I was in a loud of dust. My legs got extremely weak and I began to get dizzy. The panic attack was progressing worse and worse, as I was then breathing hard, heart was racing, I felt like I was going to die. As I said I am in nursing school so I called a fellow classmate/friend and she came over and checked my vitals. Everything was fine. My heart rate was fine, but what more would I expect. After this lasting 1 hour or more, I finally calmed down and was able to eat. I then was extremely tired and went to sleep. I woke up this morning 2-28 and I think I am having rebound anxiety and panic. I feel that I am panicking because I don’t want to feel the way I felt last night. I just feel like I can’t take this anymore. How can I be a good mother, wife, friend, student, when I can’t even take care of myself. I feel that when I talk to people it helps me get through it but this is something I feel I have to live with for ever now. I also do have a loving fiancé, but it is hard for someone who doesn’t experience this to understand what it truly feels like and how to respond to it. It is hard for someone to get that feeling you are experiencing and accepting that this is truly an illness and how you are feeling. I always just try to tell myself one day I will be ok, but as of right now that one day seems to never be possible. I joined this site hoping maybe I would be able to find some people who are struggling like I am and be able to talk and compare as well as help each other through these unfair mental events.

Thank you for reading and allowing me to vent

Have a WONDERFUL day!

2 Comments
  1. kmiller 5 years ago

    Thank you for sharing those difficult thoughts! I know how hard it is to go through anxiety, panic attacks are THE WORST feeling! But, try breathing techniques, they work. Also, remember they can’t last if you don’t “feed” them. Redirect your thoughts, picture them as just thoughts, in a bubble cloud, that floats away! I do that, helps a lot. I wish you well, you are worth it, keep fighting!
    K

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  2. geoman 5 years ago

    Wow I just joined this site to catalog 32 years after being diagnosed with a panic disorder. I wrote a blog to document how I’ve survived the last 30 years. I hope you have a rich and full life you deserve and, whether you believe in God and life is a gift or not…. I like this, if someone gives you mud, make adobe. Please do not lose hope and take action. I did it for my children

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