I was just thinking to myself how nice it would be to live one day or even more without any fear or the word fear coming into my mind.  Wouldn't it be nice to trade your life with someone else just for one day and enjoy everything you have ever wanted to enjoy.

I have my anxiety fairly under control, but the fear of driving has brought me to my knees.  I can get in my truck and drive only a couple of miles and the panic hits me like a ton of bricks.  I don't get it, I used to love to drive and I drove everywhere, but for the past couple of years I haven't been able to live a normal life.  I count on other ppl to do my shopping and get me the things I need to live.  I don't want to count on these ppl anymore, i want to do it myself.  I want to go and be free to do what I want.

I have spent countless hours thinking about what has caused my anxiety and what causes the panic when i try to drive, but all I'm doing is driving myself crazy.  I can't figure it out, i can't come to a conclusion as to why this is happening and why i can't seem to overcome it.  I know they say "you have a chemical imbalance" but I dont' want to accept that.  I take meds, but all they do is mask the problem, I want to get to the root of the issue and fix it, but it seems so distant.

If I could ask God for one thing, it would be to be free of fear and anxiety forever.  I want my life back and I want my life back now.  It brings me to tears to even think about all this, but it's my life and I will never give up the fight.

So if you would please pray for me and ask God to give me the strength to overcome my fears and to overcome my anxieties.  I would appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.

Thanks, Eric