I am sad today as I have been for the past months. I am going crazy because I have nobody to talk to. My life is heading down this path that I am scared of and I do not know what to do. I just started school and I am in the Masters program my dream is to become a teacher and work with kids that are socially and emotionally disturbed. How ironic, I am choosing a carrer that I myself have become a part of. I have suffered with anxiety since I could remember. However it has gotten to the point where I cannot give a presentation or speak to classmates. I get so nervous that I just freeze and whatever comes out of my mouth is just unbalievable. I sound like a complete idiot. . . I dont know what to do, I feel lost and I feel like a loser. I cant believe that I have worked this hard to get where I am and every night I cry myself to sleep because I know that I am going to fail. This anxiety is robbing me of everything.. I cant comprehend how this could happen I noticed that over the years I became very shy and now I just want to stay home and not do anything I try to work on my homework and I do but as far as my presentations I just feel my heart starting to pump fast and I cant concentrate I begin to cry because I feel so ashamed of myself. I sit in front of my computer crying because I just cant bear the thought of speaking in public or being apart of a group. It is a terrible feeling that I dont wish on anyone ever.I have never been an A student but Iwork very hard for my grades very very hard.. Im just lost and I reallydont see thelight at the end of thetunnel or the silver linningshinningthrough. . . . . . .