The Lost has been found…I think. I feel like I have woken from a multi-year sleep in which I was emotionally blank. I feel there is something wrong with my life, it is right in front of me, and I have refused to see it.
Could it be that I'm still single? Maybe
Could it be that I'm working at a job that doesn't recognize mental health as an important aspect of well being? Maybe
Maybe I'm entering mislife crisis stage? Perhaps
I know what it is yet I don't know if that makes sense. I have refused to see it…it doesn't accept that and is festering. The longer it festers the more it bothers me. It's now bothering me to the point to be a major concern since it's affecting my moods. if I don't make an attempt to see what I don't wish to see…it will de-stablize me to a point that I don't wish to see.
Kind of seems like I'm rambling, doesn't it? Sometimes that's the best way for me to remove clutter and get to the truth.
(Listening to music with eyes closed)
It's a love song, I …
I think my issue might be Love. Lack of Love that is. Someone I thought was going to be a great friend…misunderstood some things I sent her…stopped being my friend. I'm wondering…can I be loved? Seems stupid to me, other friends love me and care about me…that can't be it…It is…Shit, that's it…my actions lately confirm it.
How the H do I answer a question like "Can I be Loved"? What proof could I possibly show on such a *sigh* major topic? Apparently I don't take my own word for it or it wouldn't be an issue.