It’s almost midnight, I have a lot of work due this week. I have been sitting in the library for two hours now. I just want to be able to focus, but I can’t. My brain feels like its in a fog and I can’t think straight. I feel pretty overwhelmed and am not sure how to feel better. Tonight I feel, sad, stressed, tired, dazed, alone, and numb. I have had depression/anxiety for the past four years, but it feels like it is really ramping up. I am sad all the time and have not had relatively happy moments when it should have been something “happy.” I do not really have anything I am looking forward to or that keeps me motivated. It is hard to go through life like this.
Anyways, thanks for listening. I hope you are having a great day.
Reaching out is a step in a positive direction. When I feel no one cares I get a note or someone sends me a message, it’s a glimmer of hope in a dark place, sometimes a laser beam of light in the darkest shadow. I try to encourage people. It can be disconcerting at times cause I am older. Part of me is concerned speaking with young folk but then I think we are all people. And how can I turn away from my little sister in life when her heart is low. We sometimes develop the most unlikely of friendships. I just caught up and emailed a friend of three years. We both had a meltdown about the same time. Lost track during the pandemic. It really is uplifting to spend a minute with someone who has been with you through much. So continue to reach out. Develop support and encourage someone too. Hugs my friend. Be kind to yourself.
I really appreciate your vulnerability. I am in school for my masters and I too sit in front of my computer wishing I could focus better but feeling like I’m in a fog. Your post helps me to feel that I am not alone in the struggle. Yes, It is hard to live like this and I wonder if I’ll ever emerge from the fog completely. I wish someone would wave a wand and tell me I’ll never have anxiety again. I hope things are looking up for you. Thanks again.