11/22/2012

Reflections….

So many thoughts racing through my mind, traveling from some unknown origin to some unseen destiny. For but a fleeting moment I seem to be able to grasp a hold of one and then as quickly as it came it is gone again. As I looked back over the posts I have done since I started this Blog, I see the subtle changes that have taken place in my life. And yet as with so many thoughts still to be had there are yet so many more changes I know that will come. Some may not be looked upon as favorably as others, but life goes on. We can't change those things. Others are desired, even welcomed at this point in my journey. Uncertainties about the changes – yes. Fear of what the future holds – a bit. The desire to simply let life continue as it is – no.

3 weeks and 4 days ago today, a cosmic event took place that will no doubt forever alter yet another potential future in this journey I call life. October 28, 2012 at 7:31 pm. Still recovering from "Boston", I really had no intention of engaging in yet another self deprecating experience in this eternally challenging game that we call "human interaction". I would have been certainly content in simply "existing" once again. So with this frame of mind – it happened. The stars aligned, the shadows cast, the music set, the dialogue began. Subtle, it started, simply as a flirt at first, then interest peaked. 3 hours and 13 minutes after the "event" began, we knew far too much of each other to let it simply be a "passing in the night". Our well wishes for dreams said, we bid each other Bonne Nuit.

The following 3 weeks, (it seemed like an eternity), brought about so many discoveries which only seemed to add fuel to a flame that I had felt had long burned out. Strong emotions collided with rationality – the battle between the head and the heart raged on. In one hand reality weighed in very strong, constantly vying for attention. And then there was the other hand. It was too easy, the rapport between. An unspoken connection, and though a great distance separated, it was as though side by side we sat. And talked, and our lives we shared. Were we lovers in a past life simply re-finding each other in this one, I asked myself many times. Or was I yet a fool again, only with disappointment waiting in the wings. I could not bare not knowing . The rendezvous set in neutral territory, yet with precise attention to detail in setting the scene for yet another Act of this story that was slowly unfolding.

November 18, 2012. The day had come. With anticipation, (and some reserve), I arrived at the designated point. And finally face to face we stood. The minuet began – and we danced. For 4 days and 3 nights, and there was no worry that at the stroke of midnight our "prince charming" would simply fade into nothingness again. Time seemed to stand still. And at the end of each day, in embrace, we fell asleep.

November 21, 2012 at 12:00 – the music quieted, the lights dimmed, as the actors embraced for one final moment. And then the curtains closed.