Wow what a couple of days… I have been in some amazing meetings in the last couple of days… you know they say you will here what you need to hear when you are ready to hear it… well when I am in a meeting on resentments I just kind of GRONE…. well the last ew meetings I have been in I have not.. and the cool thing is I am free of any resentments today… but while sitting in a meeting a few day ago I had one of those Ah HA moments…. and that was I am capable of sitting in a resentment for as long as I wish as long as I am NOT willing to do the steps… and that my resentments are mine and mine alone… and know one has any part of them…. This last 10 months for me I have sat in a resentment that I thought was His fault… (now how stupid is that) and in 100% honesty I was angry with ME!!! for doing the same thing yet again….. and then again….. and it took what it took for me to figure that out. and you know while I was sitting in one of those meeting on resentments I relized that it was gone…. and I can not tell you when it went away…. but it did… and it did because i STOPPED pointing that finger at him and started pointing them all at me… and relized where and what that resentment was…

I relized that I cleaned up my side of the street a while ago and it is not up to me to make him forgive me.. I have no power in that… but you know I forgive ME!!!! and that is the important thing …. Some times quickly and sometimes slowly…. in Riding (motorcycles) they say it is not about the destination it is in the journey… and man let me tell you that it has been one amazing journey that I would not change one bit… I have needed what I went threw the last 10 months to have happened some time ago. but they also say that you will go threw what you need to go threw when it is time to go threw it…..

I am greatful today for the ups and downs… I am greatful for all the Hims…. and I am greatful for all the lessons that I have learned for them… and i am most greatful for resentments and for what they have done for me and my growth in this thing called recovery… What an amazing ride. My prayer for all is to enjoy life to the fullest, to enjoy the ups and the downs, anf to learn from everything that you do….

The peice that I feel inside today is awesome…. and the freedom that goes along with that is amazing…..

Life is A dance when you take the steps……..

I am blessed today