So, since I have been on here last I have received an email from that guy. I watched him to go three concerts in two weeks after saying he doesn’t spend his money for fun. I have went through photos and cards and threw a majority away. I found myself thinking about us spending time in my living room so I re-arranged furniture. I secured someone to talk with (I don’t know how helpful he is) an intern at my college. I finished up some service work in a recovery group. They are arguing about if a person an observe the meeting or not through an email thread. I have been recognizing my own anger. I feel that I have dived into helping people at work and there isn’t really a reciprocation of helping me out. Same with friends. I helped someone by organizing a baby shower recently. This will be the only time I ever do this for someone. I had to deal with several folks and when I tried to set up the day of the shower I had limited accessibility to get our car in to unload tables, they were sweeping the floor as I decorated with my ex husband who has back problems. Then I sat around in silence pretty much through the day as folks came. I was polite and cordial.    yourtexasbenefits