I don’t really have any friends. I don’t need friends, but it would be nice. I don’t have anybody that’s really down for me and who I can talk too.”My time will come.” Honestly that’s the only thing that gets me through the day. Relationships, friendships, life, etc. Ig it will be okay.

I miss people who don’t miss me. It’s honestly pathetic. I can’t help but wonder how things would be different if I would’nt of fell off with certain people. If I still lived where I used to. Everything happens for a reason? Does it really? Tell me why I ran into someone who used to be my best friend for 6 years, just so I can be reminded of what used to be and so we can make small talk and not hit each other up. I don’t understand it. What are the chances? I moved, she moved, it had been almost a year. So does everything really happen for a reason, because if so then why? It honestly made me feel like crap and had me to thinking about the past.

I’ve been really depressed lately. It’s ridiculous. I don’t feel like doing anything. My grades are terrible and I know they are, it’s just that I don’t have the energy to do anything about it. All I’ve been doing lately is sleep. I take naps at school. I take a nap when I get home, and I try my best to get to bed early. I wish I had more enthusiasm about things too. Sports? Holidays? I don’t care, I wish I did. My goal is to make it through the day, and to be honest that’s sad asf. I see people laughing, joking, talking, and I’m just here. I’m just uninterested. Bad news? Good news? I have the same basic emotion of nothing. “Oh well” “Cool” I don’t think I realized how bad I was getting again until it came down to the little things. When I stopped getting excited about them.