This is the last fucking straw. . I had a hard night tonight about my Anorexia. So I was crying, the fam tried to help in a way but it made things worse. . Long story short mom got over it and we fought, the whole family. Then things got physical and she knocked all the stuff off my desk and bookshelf. . She almost crashed the bookshelf to the floor.she threaten to give the pets away and then I got angry, I told her if she did I shoot her. . She tried to hit me but my brother stopped her, I hit her though. And as bad as it is to admit….it felt good. . I'm want to leave, she wants me gone to. I told her everything I hated about her, all that pent up rage came out.. . I cleaned up the mess age made, as always. I told her I hope she does and rots in hell. . She doesn't care she doesn't get it, she called me an ugly bitch, I already know I'm an disgusting obese pig-whale 😔 . I want to die, im still debating on it tonight or tomorrow while she's at work. . But I'm done. That bitch has crossed the last line. I done with recovery, with everything. . Idk if I'm going to post again. ..incase I don't, goodbye everyThis is the last fucking straw. . I had a hard night tonight about my Anorexia. So I was crying, the fam tried to help in a way but it made things worse. . Long story short mom got over it and we fought, the whole family. Then things got physical and she knocked all the stuff off my desk and bookshelf. . She almost crashed the bookshelf to the floor.she threaten to give the pets away and then I got angry, I told her if she did I shoot her. . She tried to hit me but my brother stopped her, I hit her though. And as bad as it is to admit….it felt good. . I'm want to leave, she wants me gone to. I told her everything I hated about her, all that pent up rage came out.. . I cleaned up the mess age made, as always. I told her I hope she does and rots in hell. . She doesn't care she doesn't get it, she called me an ugly bitch, I already know I'm an disgusting obese pig-whale 😔 . I want to die, im still debating on it tonight or tomorrow while she's at work. . But I'm done. That bitch has crossed the last line. I done with recovery, with everything. . Idk if I'm going to post again. ..incase I don't, goodbye everyoneone