I have been making a lot of strides to improve my life. I am still working at the same job for over 6 months now. It is a very supportive healthy environment – the down side, it doesn't pay very well. My house finally sold in a short sale, not long before the foreclosure date, so that is a positive thing. I moved in with my brother to be closer to work and have cheap rent in a decent condo – problem – he is a very serious alcoholic. He drinks nearly every day and at least 2-3 days a week, I come home from work to find him falling down or passed out (non responsive) on the couch. He has had alcohol problems his entire life, lost his license for the 2nd time after only having it back for about a year. He is absolutely miserable with his life and constantly obsesses and talks about the same things over and over. For a few months, I have provided encouraging words to him to look for a new job since he is miserable where he works. I have tried to lead him to looking at things is a positive light if nothing else to help himself to not be so angry. He has the most absolutely ridiculous excuses for why he won't take the smallest steps to improve his life. I encouraged him to seek professional help (he does have health ins), mental illness is common in our family so he has no reason to be embarrassed about it.This past Saturday night, he wasonce again complaining and repeating himself aboutthe same miserablethings that I have hearda hundred times. I had finally had enough and yelled at him to shut the F** up, how he gets drunk and goes off obsessivelyabout stupid s*** and he is the only one who can change it. He hid out in his room for a couple of days. He came in Monday night and when he came in the door, I told him I was sorry I yelled at him. He did not say one word and hid in his room all night. The next night he told me he didn't want to live there any more (not to mention he didn't even notice how miserable I have been the past few months living with him). Fortunately, the place we live in was my mom's condo. My mom went to a nursing home and our youngest brother is power of atty. We have been paying rent for now until we decide what to do with it. My youngest brother doesn't want to deal with the condo at all. Hopefully, my little brother will agree to let me stay there when my older brother moves out. I don't have anywhere else to go and believe I can handle the rent on my own – it won't be cheaper anywhere else.I know, blah blah blah, everyone has problems. Thank you for listening. I just needed to get it off my chest.
Discouraged
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