Well its over. The day I've been dreading for what has actually been years is done. I auditioned. The day went as follows.

7am left my house for the college, listened to a recording of my piece played over and over and over again.

10am arrived at the college and sat through my first interview. The Colonpin made me a bit drowzy and so I was kinda out of it for the interview but I woke up in time for the next part.

10:30am – had the sight reading, aural theory and ear training session. I wasn't prepared for having to sing in front of people – but the meds helped me keep calm and I managed to pull it off. then the big one.

11am – Audition and interview with who would be my professor for 4 years. The interview went great, we talked about music and our thoughts on playing and he said I had a "facinating thought process" (if only he knew, right?) And then I played. I sucked. But at that point in time that I was sucking, I was calm – no shakes, no sweats and only minor OCD symptoms were present. (Just my skin picking and my cleaning/neatness) He commended me on my "spotless" instrument (a feat that I obsessed about for 3hours last night losing valuable sleepy time) and in the end decided to reccomend me!

So now I have to wait for the official OK from the music dept and then one final letter of acceptance sometime before the end of the month.

I'm glad its over. Now that the meds have worn off I'm super embarassed by the mistakes I made today; but for once I feel like I won. I went out there when every fiber of my being told me I couldn't and to chicken out again. However, victories are short lived – I have a ton of stuff to do this weekend and no time to do it. BUT STILL!!! I DID IT!!! AUDITION IS OVER!!!!