When I was in 6th grade, I began to notice my stepdad become more violent with his words towards me and my mom. I put it off as him just being irritable from our big move across the country, and ignored it. But the anger and abuse continued, and escalated from only being verbal to being physical with me. He would come into my room late at night and mess with me (sexually). Those multiple occurrences scared me for my entire life, and even though I haven’t seen him in almost 3 years, the memories still haunt me sometimes, and I sometimes still get nightmares about it. I have trouble sleeping currently, and I blame my increase of anxiety to the fact that this happened to me at a vulnerable age, 12-14 years old to be exact. I no longer live with him, and he is in jail for at least another year, but I guess there’s always that fear of “what if?” Like what happens when he gets out? What happens when I’m an adult and he’s out of jail and wants to contact me. Even if its only to apologize, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to look back at my childhood memories, or pictures of my family, or even look at him every again.
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Leveling out
xillah, , Depression, Career, Relationships, Weight Loss, 0
So, yeah… I felt pretty God-awful the day of my funeral. (WOW, that was the most bizarre Freudian slip...
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I can’t do this anymore
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I’m struggling. Anxiety is getting worst . I’ve having panic attacks. Ive lost my husband. And I don’t know...
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Still trying
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Today has been a bit strange, only on the inside. Not sure what to feel or how to feel...
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So Long
Teig, , Depression, 0
What is the worst I can say? Things are better if I stay, so long and goodnight. Well if...
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First day
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When it was my first day at secondary school I was so nervous! I have Scopophobia ( fear of...
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Torn
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Basically, I'm a fucking mess. So there's that.I just want to be the perfect, cookie cutter version of myself...
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Atlantic City
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I had a wonderful time today..I brought $80 dollars with me to use on the slot machines..and let me...
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Hercules would kick Jesus’ butt in a fight
Thelema, , Anxiety, Addiction, Anxiety, Child, Domestic Abuse, Grief, Questions, Religion, Sex Therapy, Sleep Disorders, 0
Yes, the church of Fonz is what I'm getting at. Peter took from the show exactly what people take...
You don’t have to look at him again. When you’re an adult, you’re able to set boundaries in your life that benefit you. It is okay to be selfish and say, “I don’t want this person in my life anymore.” You don’t owe anyone an explanation. Do what you need to do to make you feel safe as long as it’s healthy.