Okay, I’m going out on a limb here. I’ve been needing help with this for a while and seeing as nobody will help me, I’ve decided to take this into my own hands. I’m just another teenage girl with problems and it bugs the hell out of me because when I was little, I always told myself, “I’ll never be depressed and starve myself like those girls on TV!” And now, sadly, that’s what I am and what I’m doing. The things I do and what I have don’t put me in a box, or at least I tell myself that. I just want guys to like me and to have friends and maybe if I’m lucky, a bestfriend. It’s kind of hard though when you have OCD and that makes you do lots of wierd stuff when people are around. Such as arranging things a certain number of time (15 for me, which sucks) and they’ll just stare at you and that just about ruins every chance at making new friends or having a boyfriend. And I can easily push past boyfriends if I can get help and I’ll gladly settle for a nice few friends who will love me for me and take my problems as they are, and help me every step of the way like I will help them, because isn’t that what friends are for? I’ve tried to help myself with OCD, but it doesn’t work. I’m gradually getting worse and the voice in my head is nagging the hell out of me and I wish it would just stop already so I could take a few minutes to breathe and find myself. I’m tangled, lost, broken, and confused, and when I told my parents I had OCD, they just laughed at me. That hurt more than I can say, because you expect them to be there for you, right? Well, wrong in this case. I cried many nights because of that but now I have walls and don’t tell anyone unless I’m fully sure I can trust them. So this is me trying to begin again by just letting all of this junk out of my mind. I don’t know if anyone will read this, but if you beautiful people are, then stay strong and help me be strong. Right now, I really don’t know. Someone help me with this, please. If anyone of you has OCD, speak your mind and tell me what you’re going through so I know I’m not alone. All I see is normal people and it’s just me in this huge world, and I feel kind of really alone. This is me and I’ll be here on this site looking for someone to help with this because I can’t go to a therapist, hence the parents. 🙁
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I get a bit of OCD when I get anxiety. I think they are in the same cluster of things. And the OCD will cause me to absolutely fixate on one issue to the exclusion of all else, all day and all night, for up to a week… sometimes more. I have had very few of them severe enough to last a week but just had one recently.
There’s a lot you can do with medication. You, as a teenage girl, must SURELY be allowed to go to the doctor and see him/her privately for ‘women’s things’? I mean, surely your mother doesn’t have to come in for that too?
There are two first steps for you. One would be the school counsellor, and the other is your GP. Either of them can start the process for you of getting what you need.
There’s no need to be a sufferer forever. There are behaviour therapies, cognitive therapies, medications and just plain having some people around who understand or can share.
In closing: mothers and fathers laugh at such things when told for the first time. You have to break down their walls. My daughter has told me she had OCD. I believe every teenaged girl has probably told their mother at some point that they have OCD. That’s why the first reaction was laughter. It’s only if you persist and start to tell them the symptoms and the things you’re struggling with that they start to wonder if there’s more to it than just being a teenager. You have to persist.
They’re not like this because they don’t love you. They’re like this because it’s just something everyone says nowadays and it’s a parenting first measure: first time, laugh. See if that kills it. Second time listen. Think. Third time start suggesting ideas. It’s how we operate and it does work a lot of the time nipping things in the bud. Just that some things persist. We trust our kids to come back and nag us more if we are wrong.
My parents just simply don’t believe in those sort of things. As in OCD, they think it’s ridiculous and that there’s no such thing. … I’ve tried telling them much more than once, but the reaction is always, “Oh please. OCD isn’t real. People just make it up.” Then sometimes they see what I’m doing and give me weird looks and tell me to stop and I just want to scream that “HEY HI I’M HERE AND I NEED YOUR HELP” but they aren’t helping.
Whenever I want to talk to the doctor alone, my mother says, “No. Whatever you have to say, you can say it with me here.” And well, the doctor can’t really do anything about that and I don’t want my mother to get mad at me, so I say, “Yeah…” I want medication for this, I want to see a therapist for this, but my parents don’t want me to and I honestly am not strong enough to do this by myself.
It’s time consuming and hard and I hate it so much. There’s really nothing I can do right now, though, so I have to bare with this. 🙁
School counsellor it is then. Have you ever seen your school counsellor? I think every school has them. That person will be neutral, and look after your best interests.
The parents sound old fashioned. it will take some work to turn them around so I would tiptoe by quietly. My mother didn’t believe in a lot of stuff. It’s taken an absolute battering ram to get through to her, but I’ve managed it at the tender age of 46. I think your school counsellor will be quicker. 🙂
I understand what you are going through… Please know that there is help for you. Your parents may not understand right now. Please ask them to take you to a doctor (the doctor can be a family dr. at first, tell the doctor what you are feeling) I have a good feeling the doctor will then direct your parents to take the right steps and get the help you need. Please please tell an aunt or uncle, grand parent.. someone. What you are going through is real and you have many people like me who will understand!
For tonight, sleep well and keep posting. I am praying for you and me and everyone who can relate!
thank you 🙂 I’ll try to get up the courage to tell my mother to let me speak to a doctor and get help. Well, tell her again anyway. I just don’t want to feel any more crazy than I already do.
thank you, I suffered with depression and sometimes still do, and OCD, well, OCD can bring on anxiety let me just say…lol. But yeah, my parents aren’t like that in situations like this. They believe that OCD doesn’t exist and it’s stupid of them, but they believe in weird things. Or, in this case, don’t believe in wierd things…ha. But thanks. I’ll try to focus on doing my personal best. 🙂