I have been quiet for a few days at least on here…I decided to sit back and listen…stop my rants and let things just happen…Things are well, as well as they can be for anyone who is a recovering addict.  I force myself, to do what I need to, not what I want to.  GOing to any lenghts for this.  I sat back more so to get my bearings.  This week is full of festivities in my town, there is a huge HARBORFEST….we get about 500,000 people here…and it was coined "DrunkFest" by most of the locals.  I will say I have had some apprehension regading it.  Mostly because I want to go and didnt have anyone who was really interested in doing what i want too (or lets say no one SOBER..lol)  I did go and see a few bands last night…I mostly needed an escape, I want alot right now and I have alot.  Yesterday alone was just SO FULL….I got a call and ended up with a Job that I have wanted, I also recieved and email regarding a Res Couselor position that I will be interviewing for.  Earlier in the week I finished everything regading the grants for college, my WIA and 599 are all taken care of as well.   My dad called yesterday to say my gram only has about a week left…that was rather sad..I need to go see her, and I will…she has dimentia so she has not been gram for a long time…I will be ok…

I spoke to a group of my peers the other day too…I told my life story, it was odd looking at people faces as I spoke….seeing that the actually did not identify with much of it…made me smile…I believe then they have a chance…

I will maintain I wish this upon no one…not this disease of addiction..

Im gonna go for now…I am still tired from emotions…Later my tribe.. I love you all…MIKE