6 a.m. and I'm awake already. Aaron tried to be kind and let me sleep in our bed and he would go upstairs ifmy snoring bothered him. Well, it bothered him. I really think he's such a light sleeper because of his time in the army, specifically Iraq. I'd imagine you'd have to be.
So now that I'm up I helped him move back downstairs, and ta da! Here I am.
I'm planning on watching the sunrise and then possibly going back to sleep for a little while on the couch again. I see the sunrise almost every day, but I'm so hurried that I can't sit and enjoy it ~ that's the time of day I'm getting Zach ready for school and driving him there. This morning it's just me awake for now, and the first very faint lightening of the sky is beginning.
I'm trying to make a big decision and it's really difficult to choose. I have 3 choices…I can either try to go back to work part-time as a cashier, working maybe 2 days a week, or I could avoid working completely (which may be a better idea given my abilities right now) and try to live off of what we make and forget about trying to get SSD, or I can do the appeal and still work part-time, 1 day a week or so.
The lawyer told me that the board wouldn't consider me disabled until the time I stopped working. Right now my date would be in November last year. But I'm not sure they'd even count that as I am on "seasonal leave" so that I could come back anytime within a year and reclaim my position. The big but in this is that I'm not really stable yet on medications. Next month I'm probably coming off the Abilify and going on something else altogether, so it will be another set of side effects to learn and deal with, and hopefully I will be fully able to perform day to day functions.
I HATE side effects! They are so many medicines that could have helped me except for the side effects they caused. Like the Abilify. If it didn't make me gain weight and have muscular problems it would be a good match for me I think. Now that I'm only taking 5 mg instead of 10 I can think much more clearly and don't forget things all of the time. Who knows what's next up on this crazy ride…
I guess I'll end here today ~ pink is starting to creep into the sky finally.
Hugs to all. <3
Decisions, decisions. We all have to make them regardless of the condition we’re in. Irony of Ironies. Good luck with it all. I do lean on your feeling better and stronger before work is even considered. Hugs Mary xx
whoa nellie go easy on yourselve please! You can only do what you can do nothing more or less. sounds like you need a sleep test if your snoring is that loud having been in the service it is where i learned to sleep with one eye open and open ready to defend an attack maybe where he is at. I feel you need a new lawyer that spec in disability ssd and ssi sound like the best thing for now it does not have to be perminate and you can take time get some med stabilization then go back part time into your teaching some how you as a cashier bugs me couse you have all that music talent and ability to teach too big gifts.
breath keya dont be so hard on you you have time find a lawyer through legal aide3 or mental health advocate.
sorry lunch is ready thanks again for my pink courtz love it and you too ciao for now