So for starters, i had been living on my own for a year in my own appartment, i had the same job for a year, hadn't used drugs for 11 months, with the exception of a few relaspes with pot and alcohol. i picked up on a wednesday of last week jus to get a xanax to calm myself down. yea right …. i ended up doing that, 5 hydro 10's, valuum and a hit of exstacy all in one night. my girlfriend told me i came home and lit candles around my room and started hallucinating and seeing men in suites and china men and she said she had to open my mouth to give me water because it was stuck. i had the worst night ever, then it continued on for 7 days. i was using so many drugs so quickly. i went from being clean from drugs for 11 months to being a complete drug garbage can and i was bringing my girlfriend down with me. i started to do my drug of choice, which is opiates, and also got ripped off $50 looking for smack and the bitch gave me nothing even close to a good hit of crack. i found my girlfriend overdosed on this guy's couch that had been supplying us all week. she got mad at me and i found a pocket full of pills on here, ranging from exstacy, morphine and xanax.wake up the following wednesday and eat a bunch of pills. the night before i was out trying to find smack and look for rigs because that was my shit ya know. wednesday i had a lot of appointments and even work. missed everything. we got spyed on and people wouldn't leave me alone all day . i got a call that i had to leave my appartment within so many hours of that day or my boss/landlord was going to call the cops.  i was so high and my girlfriend's family came over and we packed all my shit up and packed my whole life up in about an hour and now i live in another town about 20 mins away from where i was. we had some friends looking for roomies, so luckily i got a room and all my shit in the fucking kitchen. i have my cat here and i'm grateful i didn't lose my life in that week of using. i lost my job, my appartment, the friends i had. i lost a lot, but i didn't lose myself man. i still have me, i have my cat and i have my laptop and my phone. i'm so grateful my boss made me leave man. i would have either lost everything or died ya know. today i'm upset that i have to start allll over again, but at least i got another chance. i'm sick today i feel like hell, but i know i didn't use long enough to go through the whole sickness, so i'm not worrying about it. i'm happy i'm alive . i have a friend in the hospital who has been fighting for her life for a week because of her liver and she's about to die man and while she lay in the hospital all week trying to make it, i was out doing the complete opposite. life is strange, but everything happens for a reason. my higher power is still with me. and like my quote says, the glory isn't in never failing, but in rising up everytime you fail =)