i am really getting ………………………..FRUSTRATED with simply trying to post what i write!  wooooooooooooooosssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! OK…moving on….

Frustration isn\’t even the icing on the cake, anymore, it seems more the \”norm\”–unfortunately.  i have been waaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy toooo annoyed and in essence, shut down, lately.  i know it\’s not healthy–as i should be able/allowed to voice my opinions and feelings, anytime i desire.  But, it feels like whenever i do, it comes back to bite me on the arse!  What?  My feelings are stupid?  Nonsensical?  Whatever it is, i am beyond feeling empowered, enlightened, or even enjoyment, lately.  There are things i should be doing–for me–but, due to unforeseen circumstances, ehhhh…stuff happens, and we should be able to work around it.  Shouldn\’t we?  Needless to say, i didn\’t go to the meeting, today.  i also had a rough night/lack of decent sleep, last night, so i felt like i was dragging before i ever drug myself outta bed.  Most days, lately, i have \”moments,\” where i just wanna step outside, close the door behind me, and walk…somewhere…anywhere….*sigh  Yeah, it was a good thing, i believe, that we did manage to get in the pool, yesterday.  Of course, i\’d like to get in it more often, i believe, but my chores and appointments tend to be priorities.  Oh well…..stuff happens.

The weather\’s been kinda nice, if you like heat with sunshine.  It\’s just the humidity\’s creeping and it  seems like the only time we\’re gonna get any break from the heat  is when it rains/storms.  Yep, summertime in the southern US….  Hopefully, the rest of the week will even off some, and not keep slapping me in the face.  Guess we\’ll have to see.