so, I didn't post alot yesterday because me and mom (she just woke up looking for a fight) kept fighting on and off, and it blew up fast.

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I ended up telling her off, and when she told me to apologize I said no, because I was tired of saying sorry when it wasn't even my fault.

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and before I stormed out of the house walking to the gym (crying because I was so mad) she said "I forgive you"

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FUCK THAT, I don't need HER forgiveness, she should be the one apologizing. I'm tired of being her scape goat.

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so when I got tot he gym my eyes where all red and puffy andmy face tear stained. the young girl that works there kept asking what was wrong

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and wanted to know if i wanted her to get chrissy (my trainer) to talk. but I kept insisting I was fine and she let it go. (though she still got chrissy so I had to insist everything was fine to her as well)

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because of the fighting I missed my appointment with her, but I have one today at 3:30pm.

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I refuse to talk to her or interact with her in any way. I'm done, she's cut off. trust me if I could leave today- I would.

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Anyway, to say I want this week to end now is an understatement I can't WAIT until she's back at work.

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well, that's it for now, I also got a text from one of former friends that hurt me, I did end up sending them a letter. basically saying even though i'm still deeply hurt, I forgive them.

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they still want to be friends, and I think they got the imperssion I still do because of the letter, but it was more of a closure thing. I don't know if I trust them enough to continue out friendship.

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i'll think about it though. but once your trust is crumpled, it can never be fully restored again.

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  1. Infinitelove 6 years ago

    Me and my mom don\'t get along well either, I thought once I moved out things would be better for our relationship but I\'ve been out for 10 years now and they aren\'t better, I\'m doing better though without being nagged at for every little thing. I hope when you get out of there things are better for you too.

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