So during my (no doubt inconspicuous!) absence, I have
grrr
Discovered that whilst you may not have the euphemistically entitled "Funwall" (was there ever such a misnomer?!) application with facebook, people are still able to post on your non-existent wall, thus leading to a situation whereby I have umpteen messages from people on said wall with no way of reading/responding to them, at least not without reinstalling the blasted application-which I don't want to do, last time I had it the constant video and forwarded 1000 times postings drove me nuts! therefore a quick message to any hallowed members who may have tried contacting me via FB and funwall- I apologise- I promise I'm not ignoring you-try sending a message or freinds request intead and I'll get back to ya asap.
eugh
going to the doctors for a simple follow up appt and ended up in the back of an ambulance headed for A&E! To cut a long story short – couldn't breathe had chest pain heartrate was 140 and thus combined with my ahem food "issues" Dr had a panic and off went I to hospital, for oxygen xrays injections and (overheard) whispered conversation about my size (cue gems such as "stick" "twig" and "disgusting" and comedic wonders such as much joking back and forth re: "does my num look big" etc) and my scars ("self-harm" "scars" "arms" and "marks on hand" ) the latter I did respond to, by pointing out to; the relatively nice nurse ("anorexic? year I've been there worn the teeshirt got down to 7 & 1/2 stone (I didnt have the heart to tell him that was pretty much my heaviest wieght!!lol) that the marks on my hand were due to the v poor conditionof my skin rather than self harm. still good to know that the NHS I halp to fund is such a user-friendly service! they did manage to ascertain that my pain /inability to breathe was due to a cracked rib (Let this be a lesson Kids-If you mess with eating disorders you too could find yourself breaking a rib through a mere sneeze*)
eek
as the above may have hinted I'm a tad skinnyrexic and what a fun ride it is! so successeful has been my soiree back to the world of food "Issues" that I have an appointment at the Eating Disordes unit in a mere 7 hours scared? just a…… whole blinking lot! anyone who's been through the uk process any hints tips ideas of what to expect etc (I'm assuming that I'll be in a position to read possible replies) they cant arbitrally section you can they ?
anyway kids its late and the hour is early and given that I do need to be up and out in 5 (hr) I s'pose I better sign out and pretend to sleep like "normal" folk!
Keep safe stay strong
'Waif
