Have I Ever…

By: Doogie 2008 

Have I ever told you who I was,

Perhaps not who, but what I will be.

My dreams are those of tomorrow,

As yesterday has passed beyond the clouds.

Have I have told you what music I love,

That song which my spirit sings to beyond the pain,

For it is not the pain of a life cut short,

Tis’ the pain of the music of what once was.

Did I ever say I love you as you are,

For in innocence you loved me just the same.

Would that you were I; and I you,

My heart given and yours exchanged.

Did I ever cast a stone upon the water,

Watching now and then for the reflection to still.

Do you wonder of what might have been,

Our lives full and free our cares cast to the wind.

Not a worry we would have said,

With long nights of sweet travel to go.

Do you wonder what could have been,

Patient romance the world was ours.

My brush your canvas and our words the paint,

Perhaps aqua tine or fushia colored realms of possibilities…..

Have I ever shared my secret sorrow,

My one regret saved for tomorrow.

I keep it still for in motion it is always,

A requiem of unfulfilled hope undreamed.

Have I ever told you I yearn for joy.

Simple comfort paired with worlds of care.

Give me a moment and I shall but show you,

The book which I write in earnest needful passion.

Have you ever seen my silent reflection,

Hidden within the ripples of the swift moving stream.

Will you pass by uncaring without but a nod my way,

Your direction set of course in ignorance’s reflection.

Do you see me now as here in sunlight I stand?

Do you hear my voice; it’s plea ever so clear.

Will you heed my words soft spoken – yet ever so clear,

Will you listen to my story well after I am gone?

Am I to you as you are to me,

A well used token of this cold uncaring world.

Can you not feel me now as the air upon you it alights.

A fellow traveler in this vast world we share?

This world we share is not quite the same,

Full of ignorance, shame, and broken mirrors.

Should you listen now after I am gone,

My story a dream a song to be read.

Did you heed my warning and message so clear,

Or your life did you not hold quite so dear.

Have I ever told you who I was,

Perhaps not who, but what I will be.

Did I ever say I love you as you are,

For in innocence you loved me just the same.

Would that you were I; and I you,

My disease yours and your health mine?

This is the face of reality I am HIV Positive,

Please listen and stay Negative.

Have compassion and not disparity,

Be my friend still without fear.

I am Human Still,

And So are you.