OKAY SO TODAY I MESSED UP AND REALLY DID A MISTAKE. I WENT IN WORK LATE ONE HOUR AND ON TOP OF THAT

I COULDNT UNLOCK THE DOORS. I STRUGGLED AND CALLED THE BOSSES TO LET THEM KNOW THAT I COULDNT OPEN THE DOOR.

HE SAID THAT HE WAS GONNA BE THERE IN AFEW MINUTES.ITS SO CRAZY BECAUSE I DIDNT TRY HARD ENOUGH TO OPEN THE DOOR. MAYBE I SHOULD HAVE KEPT TRYING TO OPEN THE DOOR BUT NO, IT DIDNT WORK, AFEW MINUTES AFTER STRUGGLING I WENT INSIDE MY CAR BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING AND SHIT THERE GOES THE MANAGER CALLING ME, TELLING ME THAT THEY HAD GAVE ME THE RIGHT KEYS!!. I WAS POSTIIVE I HAD THE WRONG KEYS BECAUSE I COULDNT OPEN THE DOORS!

I'VE ONLY BEEN IN THIS JOB SINCE MONDAY BUT THEY ALREADY FEEL LIKE IM NOT THE RIGHT PERSON FOR THE POSITION!!

THEIR LOSS SHOOT!! I AM CONFIDENT THAT I CAN CONTRIBUTE TO A GOOD COMPANY AND MAYBE THIS JUST WASNT MEANT FOR ME.. MAYBE GOD HAS SOMETHING GREATER FOR ME AND THIS WASNT IN GODS PLAN!!

THE ONLY THING I HATE FEELING IS A FEELING OF NON-COMPLETION.. LIKE I COULDNT STAND UP FOR MYSELF..

THE LADY JUST KEPT SAYING YOUR GREAT, I LIKE YOU BUT YOU JUST HAVE TO STOP FREEZING,,,????

I TOLD HER THAT I WAS DOING THINGS SLOWER BECAUSE I WAS STILL LEARNING AND MAYBE IF SHE WOULD GIVE ME SOME SPACE N TIME TO GET WITHTHE PROGRAM,I WOULD BE ALOT BETTER!! SHE WENT ON COMPARING ME WITH ANOTHER NEW EMPLOYEE SAYING SHE WAS MUCH FASTER, SO THAT MADE ME FEEL REALLY LOW…N-E WAYS I DONT KNOW HOW IM GONNA TELL MY MOM THAT THEY LET ME GO,, THIS IS THE 3RD JOB THAT I LOOSE AND I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE…