Hi. I just wanted to share my experience, to see if anyone else has experienced something similar.
For about a year I developed intense negative automatic thoughts (NATs), and to some extent still suffer with them although not as bad as before.
These NATs would bubble up from my subconscious into my thoughts, and would usually say “I hate myself” or call myself “disgusting” or even “c*nt” over and over again, over the same negative thought patterns.
These thoughts usually coincide with physical symptoms of anxiety such as tensing and not breathing.
The thoughts were and are irrational, of course.
Now they have reduced and evolved slightly, but I still can’t get rid of them. Writing them down and then disputing them is one mitigating action I can take. Are there any other things I can do?