I don’t know how to keep going and I don’t know if I can anymore. I have nothing to live for. I feel like so empty inside. I feel sick everyday, I sleep all the time, I can barely get through my classes. I’m bot doing well in half of my classes. I don’t even want to be in college. I hate it here so much but I can’t drop out because I won’t go anywhere in life if I don’t have a degree. My mom and my sister don’t understand how I feel at all but they expect me to listen to them. Half the time they just blame me for the way I am. They tell me that my life is just going to be bad but I just have to deal with it. Why would I put up with living a terrible life when I could just kill myself? I don’t even have anyone that I could possibly talk to about this stuff because I have no friends. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I’m so out of place everywhere I go. I feel so lonely every second of the day. I haven’t hugged anyone in years. I want to kill myself, I just want it to be fast, easy, and painless.
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My husband broke on to my site and read my blogs
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The utlimate betrayal is what I am dealing with now. For months my husband has promised if I found...
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Depression..in a box
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Unique Burden
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Disclaimer: The following is an outpouring of feelings, such as I was having at the time. It was done as an...
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Where do I go from here?
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I'm new to all this and don't know how this is suppose to go but I'm just gonna lay...
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Another Grey Day
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The weather here is depressing. Doesn't help my depression at all; it makes it worse. I did leave the...
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My Story…(Part 1)
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Hi again its Sades…These blogs are about my life and story from when i was a kid till now,...
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Universalism and Rediscovering a Hopeful Theological Worldview
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“I decided to believe in a God that believed in a girl like me.” — Glennon Doyle, The New...
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Closed My Store
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Today I closed my store on etsy. It was all I had. I finally met that one horrible rotten...
I’m here for you. In a similar boat. I sometimes have the mindset but I’m only really here because of my kids. We can talk if you ever need to <3
You are very brave to share your feelings with this community, I hope you can recognize how strong you are. I want you to know, that this is a safe space where you can come to talk to us. Those feelings you are having sound really complicated and I am sorry that your family isn’t making you feel supported right now. You have value and worth.