I don’t know how to keep going and I don’t know if I can anymore. I have nothing to live for. I feel like so empty inside. I feel sick everyday, I sleep all the time, I can barely get through my classes. I’m bot doing well in half of my classes. I don’t even want to be in college. I hate it here so much but I can’t drop out because I won’t go anywhere in life if I don’t have a degree. My mom and my sister don’t understand how I feel at all but they expect me to listen to them. Half the time they just blame me for the way I am. They tell me that my life is just going to be bad but I just have to deal with it. Why would I put up with living a terrible life when I could just kill myself? I don’t even have anyone that I could possibly talk to about this stuff because I have no friends. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I don’t know why I’m so out of place everywhere I go. I feel so lonely every second of the day. I haven’t hugged anyone in years. I want to kill myself, I just want it to be fast, easy, and painless.
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Choosing me over and over again
Littlewing, , Addiction, Anxiety, Depression, Career, PTSD, Relationships, Stress, Weight Loss, 0
You know everyone who is having a good day is having a good day because they really woke up...
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First today
ZombieGirl, , Depression, Child, Therapist, 1
So its my first visit with the psychologist today. Ive realised i have made a habit out of finding...
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Just Because
sadviolinist, , Depression, Sleep Disorders, 1
Well, last night was not one of my best ones when it came to getting sleep. My husband...
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Cant help it
draw_the_pain, , Depression, Depression, Domestic Abuse, Medication, Personality Disorder, Relationships, Schizophrenia, Sex Therapy, 1
Depression is a part of life, no matter how much help, pills, drugs you take you will never get...
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A day…
sadjac, , Depression, Depression, Schizophrenia, 0
This day.. Monday.. First day of the week. A day when everyone goes back to the usual. Work, study.....
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ER Visit/Thoughts About Me
sadviolinist, , Depression, Bipolar, Medication, Sleep Disorders, Weight Loss, 1
Ok, doing better today mentally. I want to thank those of you who responded for your empathy and reassurance...
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Contradiction
Elmsbandit, , Depression, 1
Today has just been another one of those neurotic, desperate, dream filled/hopeless, scared days. My will is only strong...
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My own heartbreak
neverafailure, , Depression, Relationships, 0
I've been talking to this guy for 3 weeks (Elijah), we haven't met yet but we were pretty keen...
I’m here for you. In a similar boat. I sometimes have the mindset but I’m only really here because of my kids. We can talk if you ever need to <3
You are very brave to share your feelings with this community, I hope you can recognize how strong you are. I want you to know, that this is a safe space where you can come to talk to us. Those feelings you are having sound really complicated and I am sorry that your family isn’t making you feel supported right now. You have value and worth.